Xmas Tree

I would also like to mention that I put up what I can only describe as a "Charlie Brown" christmas tree. It's just over a foot tall and I have it on one of the side tables in the livingroom. I don't have the energy to put up a big tree and frankly i'm not home enough. So I decorated the little tree and that's the end of that. I did make a really nice reef for the front door. That I am very proud of.

Brand New Day

I have to start off by saying that this weekend was very refreshing. I got to spend some time with the pickles on Friday night since they were in town briefly. Although I could have enjoyed the few hours more had it not been for "Aunt Kill Joy" intruding on our time. But what the hey, she's not my aunt so I can't do nothing about that.

Saturday I had lunch with Magpie and the Nemisis, it was good. Then we went to Target, also good and then we hung out in my apartment. I am sure gonna miss seeing those guys on a daily basis. ANyway, I bought a few things and managed to spend more money than i thought. I keep thinking about it because i;m still not sure of what it was exactly that I bought.I have to say that now that I'm into boots products I have to stay away from target. But they just smells and feel so darn good i can't help it.

So I started my new job today. I feels good to leave work with now stress. Everyone was very nice today, so i have no nicknames and no anecdotes for now. Soon enough I think someone will get on my nerves enough for me to come up with a name for them. I'm really looking forward to this new part of my life. I can't believe the amount of stress that exists in the 7th circle of hell and what management gets away with. I feel for those good people that remain, and I have nothing to say to the bad people that made my life miserable. I just hope they see the light one day and realize that it's not worth it. That how we treat each other is the most important part. Who am I to tell them though. All I know is that I want to be successful and I don't want to run over people while i'm trying to get there. Tomorrow is another day. More to do more to learn.

Happy Thanksgiving

Hello everyone and welcome to the Floating head show. Happy thanksgiving to all. I would also like to extend warm Birthday wishes to my cousin Frank - Happy Birthday Man! Sorry I couldn't call but I don't have a long distance calling plan and I don't think you have a cell phone anymore. We'll catch up over the weekend.

I took this very late hour on Thanksgiving night to post on this blog because I caught myself doing exactly what I did not want to do. I actually got depressed today after dinner with the familia. So I pinpointed that holidays (this time of year in general because my it starts with my birthday and ends with the dreaded New year's eve) make me feel depressed because even though I spend it with family I really don't have a "special" someone to share these moments with. I think that I might be able to handle it better were it not for my mother's constant and annoying reminders. She always gives me this pitiful look as if I'm dying or something. So I start thinking, alot, and I get depressed. I need to snap out of it and find a method to derail these feelings without completely cutting off my mother. This blog is one of those methods, and I need to go back to yoga or something, I've been such a lazy bumm. Why does this always happen to girls? I betcha boys don't go through this.

Can I please just bang my head real hard against a wall

Seriously, I came into the 7th circle of hell, and people manage to tick me off at 8:45am. That must be some kind of record. I can't do this anymore. Thank goodness I only have today and friday. Then I get to start anew. I'm sure that after today I will feel a lot better. I just need to get through today and i'll be fine. I sound like i'm trying to convince myself or something. I guess deep down I have to believe that I'm going to walk out of here a live.

I wonder

I was just wondering what I would do with all my free time after I don't have the seventh circle of hell to complain about. I guess I can finally focus and getting back to school and doing productive things right?

Thoughts

Last night I did some thinking. Now i feel old, I'm not that old but i guess I just feel that way. It was a slow night for the airport so that gave my mind some time to wander. I also realized that I have really big knee caps. I think it looks weird but what the hey, can't do much to change my bones.

So not including today I only have 2 working days left. I'm really excited now, looking forward to doing new things and meeting new people. I am really fortunate to have this opportunity just when I needed it the most. So what do I do now you ask? Nothing. Enjoy these next few weeks with no thinking about the furture and wait for next year to come and start anew.

Fun Times

So I had an awesome time at my birthday party. I am so glad that everyone was able to come by and share at least a tad bit with me. I swear this is the only birthday I've enjoyed since I turned 7. This next year I hope is better than this one. Just to say that I completed 9 things out of 12 on my List is pretty impresive. I think I have really proven to myself that I can do anything I want, I just have to let go of other people's negative vibes. I think once I separated myself from all the negativity, my life really took off. Looking forward to '06, truly.

In other news, I went to see GOF this weekend after I sort of got over my hang over. Ok, so maybe I was a little bit hung over during the movie but that has nothing to do with how I am judging it. Needless to say I am disappointed at best. I think the whole thing is just awful (entertaining) but awful. I felt like crying at the end because I feel like all the magic of HP has been compromised because of this movie. People - read the book, strongly recommend it. It's just no other way around it. They cut a whole bunch of stuff out and added things in that were not necessary and played down most of the Triwizard tournament which was like the most exciting part of the book, and whole bunch of other stuff. But anyway, I won't corrupt your minds. See it yourself, just don't expect much.

It's My Party and I'll Cry if I want to

My official birthday was yesterday and I had a good day. Got a seat on the subway on my way into work, had Blockheads for lunch, and had a lovely dinner with Dr. Brain at a french place in the west village. Overall it was a good day.

Today I must admit i'm not doing to well emotionally. Even though I'm having a get together tonight that I am really looking forward too, the stress level here in the office is getting to me. I guess because I don't feel too well, and because I know my time here is limited so I don't have it in me to care anymore. Still being the person that I am I always want to do my best. It's hard to get stuff piled on you when you have a total of 4 working days left in the office. Some other people might have figured out that maybe by this point I shouldn't be getting more work but around here it takes some time for people to catch on. I can't let this upset me, I have to remember there is a reason why I'm unhappy here and a reason why I'm leaving. I can't help but think I was set up for failure.

Another reason for my distress is that GOF is out today. I wanted to go to the IMAX show tomorrow with Magpie and the Nemisis but I waited for my sister because she said she wanted to go. So i didn't get the ticket when I could, the show is now sold out and now my sister says she is too busy. I can't believe it....I feel like crying. I can't miss GOF this weekend. It's a tradition.

Lesson Learned

I learned a valueable lesson last night. While I was flipping channels at around 11 pm, I found a show about people trying to determine if the was a haunting in a military facility. Needless to say some creepy stuff happened and I was really scared. Why do I watch this stuff when I'm alone? That's something I will never do again unless it's 9 am and I have the rest of the day to forget about what I saw. So anyway, I wasn't able to get to sleep because I kept hearing things.

While in my state of insomnia I realized that I have a great view of the landing pattern into the airport. It's so cool so see the planes line up one by one and take the same landing path. It's also amazing to see how many planes land in the span of 10 minutes. Pretty cool!

Anyway, I'm still reading cien Años de Soledad, it's taken me such a long time to get throught it. One reason is because I've been busy with the apartment so I can't read as much as I used to, the other is that It's in spansih so it's harder for me to read it. I don't practice reading in spanish so I'm a tad slow, which is why I decided to read this book in spanish anyway. I've read it before and I loved it, the writing is awesome and the story is great.

TGIF! Count down continues, only 9 more working days in the seventh circle of hell. This weekend I hope to relax and take it easy around the house. With the exception of the Chocolate Show I don't have anything else planned for the weekend. I just want to stroll enjoy some time alone and run some errands, that's it. No more No less.

Done Deal

Ok, I'm done. I can't think about this job any more or the things that should be done but aren't. It's too early in the morning, and frankly I don't think I should waste my brain cells on that.

In any case, last night was a beautiful night. It was a nice fall evening with just the right amount of cool breeze in the air, clear skies and a crescent moon. I went to vote of course and then I had dinner at my mom's house. It feels a little weird going there just for dinner and leaving. I have been making it a point to relax more so I really ahven't done anything around the apartment. Although I did put up curtains in the living room last weekend, but that was about it. I still haven't really gotten over this cold so I take Nyquil before I go to bed. I've been thinking a lot lately, mostly about the changes I've made and how far I've come this year. Thinking is what usually gets me in trouble so I'm keeping it down to minimum. I don't want to get depressed so I'll just focus on my birthday.

12 Days.....9 days

Counting down is always fun. New developments in my life, I got a new job! Yes, you heard right I shall no longer have to deal with Helmet, Potato or LMSN. Everyone else I will miss especially team conspiracy corner. I hope you guys don't shun me from the "inner circle" just becuase I'm not around every day. Working here in the 7th circle of hell was good while it lasted, I learned a lot, made great friends and developed a new out look on life. I know what I want now, and I have to get it any way I can. So, 12 working days and counting. Then it's off to the new unknown unnamed for now workplace. It's going to be a longer commute for me, but I'm willing to trade that off for some peace of mind. I will be updating as soon as I can, I'm sure I'll have plenty to say as usual.

The other ongoing countdown is for GOF!. For those non-fans that is Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire. This movie comes out in exactly 9 days and I'm already concerned about tickets and who is going and such. I'm a little more confused because it conincides with my birthday and i"m planning a little party thing, but I can't plan the party until I'm absolutely sure that I've secured GOF tickets which is rather sad. I'm sure it'll be OK but i'm still nervous. Last night I forced my self to watch Titanic just because right after that they were airing a GOF special. I watched over 3 hours of titanic just so that I wouldn't miss 15 minutes of HP. Other than that all is well, will advise when I get HP tickets so that I feel as though my life is in place.

Tired

I'm so tired. I couldn't really sleep last night because of all the coughing and my throat hurting so bad. I also have something going on where my wisdom tooth used to be. the gum hurts very badly, don't know what to do about that since I really don't have a tooth there so I can't classify that as a toothache and they don't make medicine for "gumaches" except for that ambesol thing which tastes disgusting.

Tonight I am going to see Latinologues with my sister. She got us free tickets from her job so I decided to go with her even though I feel awful today. This show is supposed to be funny so maybe a laugh or two is what I need. I'm still overwhelmed at work which is not new. I have a tough time understanding how it can be possible for people to be so demanding. I have no idea how you can call someone at work and think that you are the only one that needs to be helped. Constant demands, not just demands, but I think they are unreasonable demands that one person could not possibly fulfill. I'm surprised no one in the department has committed suicide yet. I guess we all have or support systems in place to make sure that stuff like that doesn't happen. I know most of us are probably going to rely more on "the drink" if this keeps up much longer.