Work...Stress....Alcohol

It was end of month today at work which means I had a ton of deadlines. I was so stressed today. The fact is, I'm the only person in my role. I'm the only one that can get things done and moving. In some ways I like it, it makes me feel important and gives me a sense of accomplishment, but I would rather not have the stress. I was sooooo tense. So tense in fact that at around 3 o'clock I thought it nice to have some Margaritas. I got myself to the kitchen. Pulled the secret tequila stash out, the margarita mix, ice and plugged in the blender. I made enough so I could share which a few people appreciated. Anyway, that made my day bearable.

This weekend I will not be going to see the Pickles as I thought. The weather is going to be crappy and there is not really anything else going on that I'm interested in taking part in. I guess this can be my time to figure stuff out. Tomorrow we get half day at work. I plan to leave on time and not bring work home.

Winding Down

I'm almost done for today. I think sleeping so much yesterday, the early and long day today have been more than enough for me.

On the way home I waited for the subway to come for half an hour before they made an announcement that it wasn't running. Typical. Just. Typical. To be honest I was probably not paying attention because I managed to get upset at a situation that I shouldn't even be thinking about that anymore. Why do we (meanin I) get hung up on such things. Anyway, I thought to myself that maybe, even though this whole time I thought I was grown up, I was handling myself like a child. And, that maybe the other person in the situation should be treated as a child because that is the way they choose to act. I guess being the mature better person takes a lot of hard work, but I think I'm ready for it.

Labor day weekend shall be spent in the burbs with the Pickle Familiy. I haven't seen them in a while. I think I will leave on Friday, let's see how the week works out.

New York Squirrel

Yesterday I came home to find a cute squirrel on the ledge of my kitchen window.

See. Cute squirrel right. Well after a while I started to wonder if said squirrel was stalking me. It wouldn't leave my window ledge at all. I though it unusual for a squirrel it had been approximately 15 minutes and the squirrel was still there. Then it got weirder because the squirrel started climbing the mesh bug fighter off-er guard thing when I managed to catch it in this position.

I started wondering why the squirrel was stalking me. At this point it was starting to get scared. Then the worse happened. While in the above position the squirrel decides to pee directly into my kitchen. What are squirrels being trained by the homeless as to how to make everything smell? I hope my place doesn't become the good peeing spot for squirrels in New York. I was so upset. I used to think squirrels were cute. I won't judge them all based on this incident. There may be some decent squirrels still left in the world.

Bummed Out

I'm not sure why but I've felt bummed out all day. I can't tell you why. Nothing really happened to me and I'm not having any depressing thoughts about life. I'm just bummed. After work I thought a manicure and a pedicure would make me feel better, so I went to a nail salon on Christopher Street. I got a pedicure by an Asian man which was nice and the massage chairs actually worked and gave me a good massage. I waited for a long time to so I got a nice massage while reading my book. The nice Asian woman that put the color on and was in charge of my manicure seemed to have issues with the color I had choosen. I've never had that happen to me before. Usually they don't get involved with color but she felt strongly enough about it that I ended up with the color that she wanted on my hands and the one that I wanted on my feet. They match, it's just that the one on my feet is darker.

I just bought my airfare for the travels in just 4 weeks. Off to another sunny island to visit my grandparents. I haven't seen them in a long time. I think the trip is just long enough to enjoy their company. On a totally different subject I need to clean my apartment and do laundry. I really don't know where the time goes. One minute it's sunday afternoon and I'm dreading going back to work, the next minute it's thurday night and I'm saying to my self "Oh S*it I need to make sure I have stuff done".

Sum

I tried to take it easy at work today I really did. My boss was away in another office so I decided to take the day a tad bit slower. The possibility exists that I have allergies, therefore I'm sluggish by eyes are red and dry and my ears itch. Weird. Very. Weird.

Somehow I forgot to mention that I went to see Little Miss Sunshine on sunday with Possibly J. The movie was very funny in a dark humor type of way. Right up my alley. I highly recommend it. Other than that I've been up to the usual stuff. As I rode the subway home today I got annoyed because people kept pushing to get in even though the train was obviously empty. I still don't know why we choose to be rude to one another. Seriously people get over it. Maybe i'm just irritable and cranky.

Also, it was suggested by Delirium that I post a daily shoe update. She has had the pleasure of watching me buy shoes upon shoes that I thing are "cute", therefore she thinks I should let everyone know which pair I'm wearing on a daily basis. I think maybe I should update every time I wear a new pair. What does everyone else think?

The Reasons

Vudolicious just sent me a link to this website that I think is hilarious yet sad and true all at the same time. Take a look.

10000 Reasons

Question of the Day

As we grow older (and sometimes wiser, sometimes not so wise) we tend to change. Change is difficult and can cause people to behave differently and act differently, but why do people change for the worse? I guess i'm just having a little bit of frustration when it comes to this. You think you know someone but you really have no idea. I know there is no way to prevent it, but do we really want to hear it. I'm not the same person I was a year or even a month ago I know that, and I really don't want to judge because I don't know everything, but it would be interesting to find out why people grow with you and why people grow out of you....that is my bug question. I'm not going to let this make me sad but I wish I could keep everyone in my life. I know that is not possible though.

Huh?

Monday is over. Good now we can move on with the week. I'm particularly busy at work and with some other stuff going on in the personal life of FH. I won't get into it. It's shaping up to be a wild night out there. The wind is kicking up and it feels kinda chilly in my room. With that said I'm looking for the perfect outfit to go with my cute shoes so that I can wear them tomorrow. For some reason this particular pair is calling my name. Out of all the pairs of shoes that I own these are presenting a challenge, mostly because all the things that I think may go with them are more "weekender" clothes rather than "work appropriate" clothes. Tomorrow I have a big meeting which I want to look decent for so I need to come up with something fast.

Other than that I'm really not up to date on any news, entertainment or otherwise. I don't watch the news because it's just a repeat of violence over and over which doesn't make sense. Mainly because the same parties are always involved. Call me whatever you want but I would rather not look while the world falls of it's axis due to the constant battles and the Tomkat baby grows it's evil strength while plotting to take over the universe.

Is it me???

Or does anyone else feel like the world is not really right these days. What's a girl to do?

Work has been extremely hectic, and I'm not having any success with boys, my friends are falling apart and I have no motivation to move from my couch. I did manage though to find out that Britney has yet another stupid video out. I think that girl has killed to many brain cells. Either that or she didn't have that many to begin with. Maybe that's just the way she decided to cope. I mean we all have our outlets it's just that sometimes we don't choose the right one.

Lately, i've been thinking to myself that I could have made better choices in life, but I can't fix that now. I have to move on and pull through. All we can do is keep on truckin' if you will and hope for the best.

Celebrity Sighting of the Day!!!!

I saw her walking her dog on King Street today at 6pm. I didn't say Hi. There were no photogs there. It was just a calm summer day in New York.

No Peaches, No Cream

I'll keep it short. Only because what I'm thinking about writing i've already wrote and I don't think my readers will appreciate it. Just know that it's not all peaches and cream in FH world right now.

I wonder if anyone actually reads my blog anymore. I mean I know of one person that does but where did everyone else go? I guess that is the price that you pay for now writing often enough.

On a lighter note, we had great weather this weekend. There is an actual breeze outside that feels great. I'm not sure what I'm doing today but sure enough I don't want to be home. I need a distraction, or maybe just some hard liquor. I've already gone shopping and I don't think I can fit another pair of shoes in my closet. Need to come up with something else. Anyway, I think I'll just get ready to take a walk. Wish me luck people.

Taking the Risk

Ok so i'm doing it for the first time. I've logged in from work and started a post. Mainly because right now I'm faced with the dilema of staying here in the cool AC or going home to my place and just have a ceiling fan. On the one hand I could stay here and get work done. When I get out, maybe the temperature would have gone down. I just don't like the thought of having to stay here overnight if there is a power outage.

I had an ok day today. I guess the heat got to me too because i'm just really not all there. For the most part I'm just trying to stay afloat and take it as it comes. Yesterday I had dinner with Delirium. We went to the almighty Jackson Diner in Queens because we had to discuss among other things my kitty shower!!! Yes, I'm getting a cat. I think a pet will do me well, keep me company and give me affection. Kitty was just born last week so I won't get it for another 6 or 7 weeks. That's why I'm having a kitty shower. Fine it's not a baby, but it's responsibility and I need to prepare for the new arrival just the same.

All and all, life doesn't totally suck right now. Yeah it could be better, but I think I have to deal with what I have and that's that. I think I'm making strides in separating myself from some not so good situations and I'm hoping for the best. (Geez could I be any more vague!). I think maybe I should really go back to yoga. I miss it. Maybe that's what I need to get active again. That way my brain will work properly again. That and I should stop killing brain cells by watching E! entertainment. I'm getting to be obsessed with all things pop culture, the thing is that I need to keep track of the Evil TomKat Baby otherwise it might catch me off guard and eat my internal organs.