And the depression continues

I wonder how long it will be before I snap out of this rut. For today I feel somewhat better after being completely and totally depressed all weekend long. For the most part it's little things that are adding up to my discombobulation. I lost my hat on Saturday night which put me over the edge. A little history - the hat that I have always worn during winter time belonged to my brother, he passed away when I was 7. It's not the fact the I lost the hat that gets me upset, it's the comfort that it brought to me. So now i feel like i'm missing yet another part of me which i can't replace. I was devasted and started crying in the cab on my way home. The cab driver instantly became driver/therapist on the spot. Another example of boys not being able to handle crying girls.

For the most part work went well today. i have plenty to do and have loads to think about. The fact of the matter is that they really haven't had a designated person doing this job, they just moved someone into the manager role because they needed a body. Now they've got themselves a specialist that is finding problems with everything. The only thing I'm not liking is the fact that my new boss keeps referring to me as "my assistant" which ticks me off. I'm not her assistant, i don't type for her, answer her phone or sort her mail. I'm biulding plans and programs and fixing mistakes and such. I guess she doesn't know of another way to tell people that I'm the benefits person that works with her and it's ok to come to me with questions and such.

By the way I need to clean up my apartment, it's been rather neglected because of my depression issues. I better get to it before I can't find myself here. I think cleaning will help my depression too, since it always makes me feel good when things are clean.

Also, since the year is coming to and end, i have also started working on my LISt for next year. This year went FABU since i completed 9 out of the 12 things I wanted to do. I shall update when I have the final list. For those of you that have decided to join we can keep each other motivated, just let me know.